I always go back and forth on whether or not I should actually have a blog or a vlog. That tough decision is not because I don’t think I would have material or writing ability – It’s mostly because I am as unreliable on the internet as I am in real life.
When I say I’m going to do something, I am going to do it. My word is final unless some incredible extenuating circumstance get’s in the way and makes it impossible. When I say I am unreliable I don’t mean that I go back on promises or that I cancel plans just because I don’t want to do something. No, my problem comes before the plans are made and before the promises are doled out.
Before I go on let’s get this out of the way now: I can be a pretentious overbearing offensive crude and unrelenting ass hole. I know this because people have informed me of said behavior. I won’t now get in to why I believe I am this way; so as of now just take my word on it. These characteristics are in no way unique. Talk to most cynical artists and you will find these qualities right on the surface. Ask any writer who actually calls themselves a writer if they have ever fought with some form depression or intense anxiety. I guarantee you most of them will say they have. That’s just how it is. Art can be such a positive and bright force, but only because it has to first rise from a very dark place.
For just that reason, I have no problem with who I am. My friends very much understand what they are signing up for when they step into my life and I step into theirs. I will sometimes hurt them with the truth and I will sometimes offend them with opinions, but never will I mislead them or be false in any ways. I will almost always choose distancing myself before having to be false. I’m as good at burning bridges as I am building them. If you are my friend for long enough I will disappoint you but at the same time I can be the most loyal and loving person in your life. The pros come right along with the cons.
I’m not going to say I will update this on a regular basis because every time I do that I am lying to myself which seems counterproductive. What I will say is that when I have any major updates I will let you internet peeps know.
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